July - 06 - 2008

He is the love of my life , but is my life suppose to be sex free ???? I am a very sexual woman , and he is not giving me what I need on any kind of regular basics , shit . It getting to the point that that’s all I think about , cause I’m not getting it !!!!! Damn. We made love the night of the 4th ( by the way happy fucking 4th ) but before then it had been months. . . . . . . . . . Not days or weeks , but months !!!!!!! This is July and I can count the time we have had sex on one hand , and have two fingers left over !!!! You know that shit hurts , especially when I tined to equated sex with love , and I do . Know intellectually I know he loves me , he shows me in other way but need him to show in a very physical way. I need to feel wonted . I wont him to not be able to keep his hands off of me !!!!!!! It used to be like that . . . . . But now that his back is not right he don’t wont to touch me , he said it cause he can’t do any thing with me . But I feel like I’m being punish !!!!!! When he made love to me the night his back started to hurt him worst , so now I’m happy because he makes me feel so good when he is inside of me , but bad cause now he is hurting . Not fair , not fair , not fair !!!!!!!!!!