My 36th Birth Day

Its my 36th b-day and I should be fucking happy right
but I'm not !!!!!! I feel so fucked up .
you know like shit !!!I mean for real for real
I mean like I just don't wont to be here !!
and when I say ,"I don't wont to be here ."
I mean I don't wont to be doing the things
I've been doing , or seeing the people I've
been see or moving the way
I've been moving !!!!!!!
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just
really feel moody as fuck!!!! I
mean really really fucked
up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!