He gone and I miss him so much. No one can replace him in my heart . Who will I be able to talk to the way I talked to him . It so un - fucking - fair !!!! Why did they have to take his life like that . Its fucked up !!!! I’m trying to not be consumed with the hate that I feel
for those people who did this to him, but is so hard !!!!! So hard not to hate those sons of bitches . I know hate is not the way , cause they will get there one way or the other . And the God in me tells me not to hate but to just love the memory of him , 
and keep that in my heart and that’s what I am desperately trying to do. M.D.N. I love you , and I always will. . . . .
